wow

i could put into words everything that i am feeling, but i don't want to. i want to hold them gently like a moth that might fly away if i scare it, like a glass orb that may shatter if i grip it too tightly. Things in my life are changing fast, and yet agonizingly slowly, and for once i don't feel like i am going to explode if i don't share it. i'm not ashamed, i'm just... i don't want to jinx it. It's too young, too fresh, and too early to know for sure, even though i feel as if i do know for sure... There's very few things i have been more sure of as i am of this. i am trying so hard to let go and just let things happen if they are meant to be. i did not expect this to happen, to finally meet someone who seems to be the other half of me. i feel as if everyone will tell me that i don't know, as if it's too soon, he's too young, i'm too damaged, i don't care. i want to be with him, and i think that he wants to be with me, and we mean forever. It is hard because we are apart, but i believe that God is making a way for us to be together.

So that's what's happening in my life. Wow, it's finally happening. Is it finally happening?