i am utterly confused

i mean it, i am utterly perplexed. i struggled this week to clean house, get some things done with my day. i still don't have a job. i still don't have the slightest idea what's happening with Brad because he will not communicate with me. And i have no idea what is going on with God for the same exact reason. i am just hopelessly lost and don't have the slightest idea what to do. i am just... lost. The more i try the more lost i become. i am just so tired of trying to figure things out, trying to not figure them out. i hate waiting!!! When is this madness ever going to end?!?