how to "change time & date"

Well i have now figured out how to put the time i'm posting on my posts. It was hidden under "Post and Comment Options" and i have to click on that every time i want to change time & date. Now i feel silly; i wonder if it's always been there.

stuck in my head (for days now)

i think you know what i'm getting at ~ i find it so upsetting that ~ the memories that you select ~ you keep the bad but the good you just forget ~ and even though i'm angry i can still say ~ i know my heart will break the day ~ when you peel out and drive away ~ i can't believe this happened ~ and all this time i never thought ~ that all we had would be all for not

no, i don't hate you ~ don't want to fight you ~ know i'll always love you but right now i just don't like you ~ no, i don't hate you ~ don't want to fight you ~ know i'll always love you ~ but right now i just don't like you ~ cuz you took this too far ~ too far

make your decision and don't you dare think twice ~ go with your instincts along with some bad advice ~ this didn't turn out the way i thought it would at all ~ you blame me but some of this is still your fault ~ i tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge ~ i tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge ~ i think you know what i'm getting at ~ you said goodbye and i just don't want you regretting that

no, i don't hate you ~ don't want to fight you ~ know i'll always love you but right now i just don't like you ~ no, i don't hate you ~ don't want to fight you ~ know i'll always love you ~ but right now i just don't like you

wisdom always chooses ~ these black eyes and these bruises ~ over the heartache that they say ~ never completely goes away ~ (i just can't believe this happened ~ and one day we'll see this come around)

no, i don't hate you ~ don't want to fight you ~ know i'll always love you but right now i just don't like you ~ no, i don't hate you ~ don't want to fight you ~ know i'll always love you ~ but right now i just don't like you ~ cuz you took this too far

what happened to us ~ i heard that it's me we should blame ~ what happened to us ~ why didn't you stop me from turning out this way

and know that i don't hate you ~ and know that i don't want to fight you ~ and know i'll always love you ~ but right now i just don't...

~

let it all out (get it all out) ~ rip it out remove it ~ don't be alarmed ~ when the wound begins to bleed ~ cuz we're so scared to find out (what this life's all about) ~ so scared we're going to lose it ~ not knowing all along ~ that's exactly what we need ~ and today i will trust You with the confidence ~ of a man who's never known defeat ~ but tomorrow upon hearing what i did ~ i will stare at You in disbelief ~ oh, inconsistent me ~ crying out for consistency

and You said i know that this will hurt ~ but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse ~ if the burden seems too much to bear ~ remember ~ the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and i'll let it be known (at times i have shown) ~ signs of all my weakness ~ but somewhere in me ~ there is strength ~ and You promise me (that You believe) ~ in time i will defeat this ~ cuz somewhere in me there is strength

and today i will trust You with the confidence ~ of a man who's never known defeat ~ and i'll try my best to just forget ~ that that man isn't me

and You said i know that this will hurt ~ but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse ~ if the burden seems too much to bear ~ remember ~ the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

reach out to me ~ make my heart brand new ~ every beat will be for You ~ for You ~ and i know You know You touched my life ~ when You touched my heavy heart and made it light

~ Relient K's "Which to Bury; Us or the Hatchet" and "Let it All Out"

"It is but a shadow and a thought that you love. I cannot give you what you seek."
~ Aragorn

so hilarious

Apparently, even he has noticed the similarity in appearance.

movie marathon

Last night i watched Sky High (good, but not great), Christmas with the Kranks (very strange to see Tim Allen with Jamie Lee Curtis), and Must Love Dogs (better than i expected). It got me thinking about internet personal ads. I am definitely voluptuous (read: "LARGE breasts") and must love dogs is actually one of my requirements. The third movie was very angsty. I guess i just don't get/understand all the emotional baggage involved (how could i? i've never even dated, let alone been dumped/divorced for a younger woman). I just really want to be with someone quite badly... but i want it to be the one right guy. And somehow i just don't think internet ads is going to cut it. So sad. I wouldn't have the money or know how to write an ad to try.

Happy New Year!

My glasses got broken last week at work (i only put them in my pocket, i swear!).

My crew chief today said i was athletic and in good shape. He was really understanding about some people's inability to lose weight/fat even when they do everything "right" (namely me). He's a nice old fart.

I am exhausted but wide awake. There's church in the morning but i have no idea how i'm going to get out the door on time.