Ugh. Turkey dinner at church last night (moved up to Tuesday from the usual Wednesday night service) was awful. We paid $4 for it and they didn't give us large enough servings. Only the kids got the mashed potatoes: i didn't particularly care for the sweet potato casserole (the adult alternative). The Pumpkin Pie was so nasty that i couldn't finish it (and i LOVE Pumpkin Pie!). It made me long for the free Thanksgiving Dinner at Bookcliff Baptist back home in Grand Junction, CO. Tomorrow's turkey dinner will be loads better and much more filling. (:

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Well, my sis (Megan), her husband (Andrew), and her dog (Moby) came to visit last night and we got to see the Two Towers Special Extended Edition! I was supposed to go to the NCFellowship moot to watch it this weekend but my ride had to cancel at the last minute, so i thought i wasn't going to get to see it until right before my first viewing of Return of the King on Trilogy Tuesday. (: I was praying that i'd get to see it this weekend, and lo and behold Megan suggests out of the blue that we go rent it! It was totally a God-thing. We split the cost and stayed up until 1:30 a.m. but it was definitely worth it. I like a lot of the stuff that got cut out (and is now back in) but am still digesting it: i'm not sure whether i prefer the theatrical version or the S.E.E. yet... Time will tell.

Well, that's about it: hope everyone has a great weekend (myself included)!

Thursday: one week until Thanksgiving, twenty-six days until i see Return of the King, and an hour or so away from seeing my sister (she can't come down for Thanskgiving because she's working so she's visiting today and tomorrow instead). I spilled garlic spread all over my pants today at work. But i was in a really good mood all day; so good of a mood that i was getting on my boss' nerves, not to mention little Juanita's (there are two Juanitas at work, big Juanita and little Juanita). Looking forward to eating some Pumpkin Pie tonight (but i have to wait for the turkey and stuffing).

stuck in my head

Last time i wanted to post (the time before today, that is) i was really really mad so i restrained myself. I'm going to post the lyrics to Michelle Branch's song Are You Happy Now? because it's a nice way of putting what i was feeling at the time into words.

now, don’t just walk away ~ pretending everything’s okay ~ and you don’t care about me ~ and i know there’s just no use ~ when all your lies become your truths ~ and i don’t care... ~ yeah, yeah, yeah

could you look me in the eye ~ and tell me that you’re happy now ~ would you tell it to my face or have i been erased ~ are you happy now? ~ are you happy now?

you took all there was to take ~ and left me with an empty plate ~ and you don’t care about it, yeah ~ and i ~ i’ve given up this game ~ i’m leaving you with all the blame ~ cause i don’t care ~ yeah, yeah, yeah

could you look me in the eye? ~ and tell me that you’re happy now ~ would you tell it to my face or have i been erased ~ are you happy now? ~ are you happy now?

do you really have everything you want? ~ you could never give something you ain't got ~ you can’t run away from yourself

could you look me in the eye? ~ and tell me that you`re happy now ~ come on tell it to my face or have i been erased ~ are you happy now? ~ are you happy now?

would you look me in the eye? ~ could you look me in the eye? ~ i’ve had that all i can take ~ and i’m about to break ~ cause i’m happy now ~ are you happy now?

It's been soooo long since i posted here and i've been soooo busy. Many nights and weekends i have something that i want to say here but it just doesn't feel right by Monday or i forget to post entirely. It's one of the downsides to not being able to get online at "home." So i haven't forgotten to post anything here: i just haven't had the chance and/or known what to say. I still don't know what to say right now.

I had a really, really hard weekend (but did get to visit my sister!).
I actually enjoyed my job today (most days i don't).
My Sunday school teacher quit to work in another ministry, but i still go to his Bible study on Mondays (tonight).
My computer is still down but i should have it up and running again soon (then there will be updates!).

I heard Matchbox Twenty's song "Unwell" on the radio Saturday and the lyrics just seemed to be talking about me. I guess it's just another song to make a background for: except i can't make a background right now, so i'm going to put the lyrics up instead (which is funny because last time i looked up the lyrics i found someone else's blogspot with them up (: ). Well, here we go...

all day staring at the ceiling ~ making friends with shadows on my wall ~ all night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something ~ hold on ~ feeling like i'm headed for a breakdown and i don't know why

i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell ~ i know right now you can't tell ~ but stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me ~ i'm not crazy, i'm just a little impaired ~ i know right now you don't care ~ but soon enough you're gonna think of me and how i used to be...me

i'm talking to myself in public ~ dodging glances on the train ~ and I know, I know they've all been talking about me ~ i can hear them whisper and it makes me think there must be something wrong with me ~ out of all the hours thinking ~ somehow I've lost my mind

but i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell ~ i know right now you can't tell ~ but stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me ~ i'm not crazy, i'm just a little impaired ~ i know right now you don't care ~ but soon enough you're gonna think of me ~ and how i used to be

i've been talking in my sleep ~ pretty soon they'll come to get me ~ yeah, they're taking me away

i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell ~ i know right now you can't tell ~ but stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me ~ i'm not crazy, i'm just a little impaired ~ i know right now you don't care ~ but soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be