Swimsuit Stupidity

So, now that my tax return should be going into my account soon, i'm actually starting to feel as if maybe i can continue my triathlon training. i'm not rich, by any stretch, but i am richer than i thought i would be. Which turned my mind to a new swimsuit.

Here's the long and the short of it: i've had my current top two seasons and my current bottoms i bought when starting to train because my guys swimtrunks were fine for leisure swimming but not training. i wear size 22W on top and size 18W on bottom (maybe 16W by the time i buy new bottoms). One piece suits never fit me. If they fit me on bottom, i can't get them over my breasts. If they fit on top, the bottom is baggy. And inevitably they are too short: i don't think i'm long waisted or torsoed or whatever you would call it, but they never fit. i can't wear underwire (they're never wide enough for my large frame) and hate bulky padded cup (the goal is speed here, not padding my DDDs!). And if it's a scoop back, the straps usually feel like they're going to fall forward off my shoulders. i haven't found a one piece that could fit since about the time my bust went up to 40D, and that was quite a while ago.

So i'm looking for a tankini. Apparently, this is too much to ask. Tyr and Speedo don't make them large enough for me, and pickings are slim as it is (i would really love a Tyr Tri Tank, as i loved my Tyr swimteam suit, but too expensive and not in my size does not a happy swimmer make). Most tankinis out there do not provide coverage for my chest. For some reason, manufacturers seem to think that even full figured women want their breasts hanging out all over the place.

So this begs the question... Why would i pay $15-95 on any suit that doesn't fit? How am i meant to get fit if i cannot clothe myself to exercise? After i have become fit, why on earth would i willingly pay for a suit from a brand that is too stupid to make me a suit in my present size? Why should i provide them with my valuable patronage? If they are actually capitalists and trying to make a profit, then why on earth do they refuse to make a product that the public can actually wear when they are healthy or endeavoring to live in a healthful manner (and no, underweight athletes and anorexic people do not count and never will, shame on them for endorsing such unhealthy lifestyles).

i don't know how to continue training for triathlons because i cannot find any gear to fit me even if i do pay $50-100, and i really don't want to pay that much. Zoot isn't even making 2X tri tops anymore!

Stupid stupid stupid. If everyone is overweight, as the media is telling us, then these people need to get with the program and actually offer us merchandise we can use. And i am so mad at Danskin right now because they keep letting me down: i do not want to wear pink, either. i'm not five and i don't have breast cancer. Please provide grown up colors, and black is too hot and not technically a color. Grr.