So let's just call it (the title of this blog) a mood indicator as is a common feature of so many LiveJournals. I really don't feel like detailing what it is that's made me feel down again. It's very hard for me to try hard (pursue God) when everything in life seems to be conspiring to keep me down. I'm trying to be positive but am failing i think. As usual it seems easiest to just ignore it and act like nothing's wrong. I'm exhausted.